So I met a few friends of mine from highschool last weekend for a late lunch. I have to say I was a little disappointed. I guess for a while now I’ve been feeling distanced from them. Sometimes this makes me feel guilty for not making more of an effort to stay in touch, but sometimes I wonder if it’s just a natural process of us getting older and perhaps growing apart a bit. I usually defend my lack of effort staying in touch by noting that they aren’t making an effort to stay in touch either. I also wonder if any of them feel the same way? I don’t feel as akward about my friends that no longer live here. If you’re across the country obviously you’re going to hang out or talk less frequently… but my two friends that live in the city, this was the first time I’ve seen them since Christmas. I mean we all talked about the standard things, giving brief updates. They asked about school, etc. But I felt that for the most part I didn’t really have anything to add to the conversation, I’m not a person who can easily just ramble on if I feel like someone’s not listening or not interested.
I’d like to start making new friends, for my impending grown-up stage of life. I have a few friends from nursing school, but no one I’ve hung out with outside of school yet. Unfortunately, this is all coming at a time when I feel like I need to be cutting back on extracurricular activities because otherwise I fall behind in studying… ahem, like for tonight’s test. Having gone out and spending the day Saturday with friends, I lost a whole day of study time. Whoopsies. I want new friends, but I just don’t seem to have the time.