Bummer

Just because everyone should be updating their blog at 5:15am…

I think this was an official false alarm now…

The Sniper

I’m still in the limbo of my period not being late with this suspicion of knocked upedness hanging over my head. The past few days I keep pulling up my temperature chart and studying it and then thinking “seriously? Is this possible?” I peed on a stick today and it was a resounding negative.

I honestly wasn’t really sure what to say to Hubbin if anything. I mean I had warned him I was dangerous at the time and he’s got this cold/flu thing going on now and stayed home from work on Monday and today. He texted me at work sometime on Monday asking me whether I caught it from him or not. I said “well my temperature was high this morning so I’m either getting sick or pregnant” he didn’t respond.

Then today after school I went grocery shopped and stopped at the liqour store and got him a present (we usually have a glass of wine or two after I’m done with classes on Tuesday) of some Jameson figuring “well when he asks me why I got something just for him I’ll just say ‘well there’s this possibility…’”

But before that happened he came over and gave me a welcome home hug and said “You know… Earlier this week when you said you were either getting sick or pregnant I got kind of excited…” I said “really?!” he said “yeah” and I said “cause I might be”…. I explained (just roughly because he doesn’t really want to hear the finer points of FAM) that there was a possibility but it was still too early to know for sure. He got excited and started jumping around saying we can call him “The Sniper” cause he just needs one shot. Lol

So now that I guess were both hoping it’s true the wait intensifies… I think we’ll begin a chart play by play:

Yikes

Mighty suspicious. I don’t think I’ve had a temperature this high since I started tracking. Just sayin’

…or maybe I’m getting sick?

Well maybe I am?

We finally had decided over the summer to try to not try. Of course that is terribly hard to not notice now. We were going to, at my urging, wait to officially try next summer. As in try/try. Really just out of convenience because if I got knocked up in oh, say June, then I’d have a baby somewhere around March? Then I’d have 12 weeks off work, followed exactly by Hubbin’s 3 months summer vacation. Presto 6 months free childcare! w00t! Ahhem. However after the summer we’ve both had a little difficulty adjusting back to “trying not to” after throwing caution to the wind all summer. We had one episode that occurred squarely on what I believe was ohhhh probably just the most dangerous day of the whole month. The little built in ovulation predictor on my iphone thinks the most dangerous day was the 29th, but I think with that drastic dip it was probably the 28th… whoops. (PS who really gets a temperature of 96.6… talk about cold blooded!)

At first I was like little freaked about it because Gah! Plans! The plans! But I don’t know… My opinion is starting to turn around a bit. Last night we went to dinner at my parents with Hubbin’s mom too, so our whole immediate family to have dinner and look at my parents pictures from their trip to France. Now my mother in law has been hard up for babies for years. To the point that before he met me she told her old lady friends she didn’t even care if he had an illegitimate baby as long as he came up with some grandbabies. Now we were looking through the France photos and my dad took like 6 pictures of someone else kid on the ferry in Paris! A little kid playing pattycake with her dad, my parents just thought she was so cute. LOL! Hubbin leans over to me and goes “I think maybe they’re ready for grandkids now too”

Then three days ago my mother in law called Hubbin to say that her doctor wants to set up a meeting with him because they’ve now diagnosed her with early onset Alzheimer’s.

So… no time like the present either way I guess? Thoughts?

 

My Sunday Brain Explosion

I’ve been officially accepted into the gradschool program beginning in January. Provided I pass all my fall classes of course I spent the day at Panera rotting my brain on Pharmacology. I’m not joking. I’ve been here since 9am and then had to take a break when I typed the following sentence in my notes:

Antiadrenergics inhibit release of adrenergic agonists or/by antagonizing adrenergic receptors

…and then my brain exploded all over the walls of Panera. Seriously. School blows. But you know, great news being accepted to the masters program, now I can have a blast doing this for two more years…

I’m currently taking a break and reading about various baby products online. Because I am OBSESSED. My ovaries are hormonally in full baby drive and are screaming “make use of us now!” I’m trying to be rational and wait until schools over… but I don’t want to.

We decided this past summer to just “not pay attention” or in other words, not really try persay but not try not to either. Of course I was paying attention because I think once you become aware of the FAM of birth control you can’t ever not be aware. I used to inwardly cringe when people talked about “charting” for birthcontrol, because everyone knows that doesn’t work… au contraire. I started in March 2008? No babies here. If that’s something your into do check out the iphone app for women’s calendar it really and truely is awesome, it does pretty much everything I would want it to and I’ve since completely abandoned paper.

Anyway, to satisfy (or tease) my whole baby drive I spend my spare time secretly reading about different brands of car seats, slings, strollers, and cloth diapers… I’m pretty sure I could fill out pretty much a whole baby registry right now if pressed. I’m thinking come next summer we may actively start trying… it just seems so far off! I won’t be done with school then, but by the time we would have a baby I’d be more than half done and that seems fair enough…

Incredibly Frustrated

See, this is why I took a break from blogging, the negativity. Now school started and I’m right back cranky again!

My computer and I are still fighting. We managed to wipe it clean and reinstall windows but now vista wants to install every update since 2007. I’ve started doing them just 5 at a time, and all goes well till it gets to the part where it wants to reboot to finish installation and then it goes “whoa whoa whoa, nevermind, I can’t make it through start up afterall, back up to before that install” round and round we’ve gone like this for a WHOLE WEEK now! I’ve gotten some installed, but there’s still like 20 updates that throw it for a loop everytime. Plus my speakers aren’t working now, and my trackpad isn’t working now. UGH.

AND. As if that wasn’t enough, the online class program my school uses was upgraded from Blackboard 7 to Blackboard 9, and they changed our usernames in the process. Well I’ve had it up to HERE with blackboard 9 because every single time I’ve logged on since they upgraded it says that my password is invalid. So I have to do the “forgot my password” BS where you fill out a form and they send you an email and you have to follow a link to reset the password, then I get in and you have to change the password. I’ve done this (not even kidding) 12 times already and it can’t seem to remember my password and the next time I log in it’s invalid again. GAH!

My patience, she is wearing thin.

Miss Piggy seems to be limping along, she’s still in her little papertowel bedding “ICU” tank, still getting dropper fed calcium and water and fingers of food. I did however find her in a different position this evening than what I left her in last night. (that’s good) AND I took her out to do a little lukewarm water soak and witnessed her clumsily move each extremity (very good) to inform me that the water was too warm. She’s still lethargic and still struggling with coordination, but hopefully she’ll continue to improve and bounce back.

My husband just served me pancakes for dinner! This evening may be making a turn for the better afterall!

Summer Review

Aww thanks Ashley Nice to know I’ve been missed (PS, can you let me read your blog again? I miss knowing what you guys are up to)

I took a blogging hiatus mainly because I felt like I had nothing to talk about and due to school I was just a giant pool of negativity. Rather than post nothing but whining I thought maybe I should take a break.

June- Stu’s dad came for Stu’s graduation from our school district and stayed for about a week. Hubbin looooooved Stu’s dad and promptly announced he wanted to adopt Stu’s dad for a year too. I told him we couldn’t just go adopting every German that swings by. We saw little of Stu his last couple weeks in the US because he was hanging out with his friends and getting in all the last minute social stops and graduation parties he could. We dropped Stu off at the drop off point on June 26th where he went to debrief for 3 days before flying home. All in all, Stu was a wonderful kid to have for a first exchange student because he was so pleasant and easy going. I’m quite sure we’ll have another one in the next few years. Fortunately I’m off the hook this year because Hubbin successfully recruited one of his German students to host another kid. Whew.

July- We celebrated our 3 year wedding anniversary Then the next day I dropped Hubbin off at the airport for THREE WEEKS in Germany. Being a teacher is a very rough life. I finished my summer classes July 14th (finally!) My heart was just so not in the classes this summer and I felt guilty because I felt like I didn’t learn enough. I got ‘A’s in both of them but I did feel like I wasted a lot of time especially with my Advanced Assessment class. After school finished I essentially worked a lot in July and cleaned the whole house really well since there was no one to come around behind me and mess it all up. I swept swiffered and mopped each room in the whole house and it stayed nice and clean until the day Hubbin got home and his suitcase exploded in the living room. Hubbin had horrible flight karma on the way home and missed his flight from DC to home by 5 minutes and then the next flight was delayed because of weather then delayed again and again, so instead of picking him up at 5pm in the afternoon my mom ended up picking him up at 2am because I had to get up for work at 5am the next day. Alls well that ends well but it was highly irritating to be looking forward to pick him up for THREE weeks and then barely get to see him at all when he got home.

August (so far)- I’m finally on my summer vacation and we just spent 5 days in Nice, France We liked it so much on our cruise last year that we thought it would be a nice place for a summer vacation I know it seems like a short trip but I was trying to be budget conscious with booking it It was very nice, we had a lovely time and every time we go on a vacation together where we can relax and aren’t distracted by our computers and TV and actually hang out together and reconnect I’m reminded of how well we fit together.

Now hopefully I can get back to posting more regularly without all the whining.—that may be a little optimistic though because my classes start again in two weeks and I registered for 14credits. Correct me if I’m wrong but wasn’t this a part time program I signed up for? I thought so. Oh well, I’ll be finished with the BSN in December and then I solomnly swear I will register for no more than 8 credits the rest of the program!

Enough antioxidants to kill a horse

So I stopped at costco today on my way home from studying and picked up some fruit. I’ve decided that this is going to be “the summer of smoothie” because who eats enough fruit anyway? Hubbin and I decided we’re going to have a whole month of nudity at our house after A: our exchange student leaves and B: it gets above 60 outside… Smoothies just seem like appropriate breakfast food if you are or intend to be nude. I’m still working out the kinks in my master plan because who has time to make real breakfast when you have to punch in by 7am? My master plan is to figure out some way to store breakfast smoothies in the freezer so they can ultimately be a “grab and go” breakfast for both of us.

Not pictured smoothie players: banana, soy milk and carnation chocolate instant breakfast. –I fully intended to mix in yogurt but it expired yesterday. I know I know, but it also had some mold, so well have to catch up with yogurt next time around.

Ahhh

Spring break began at 7:30pm tonight and I have the next three days off work. Excellent planning on my part! I got 100% on my graduate statistics midterm (nerd I know, but she also totally spoon feeds us) and I presented my final project for my 1/2 semester community health nursing class -on teens and caffeine- and got an A, woohoo! That was 20% on my grade. I hope I got an A, that would be awesome because I hated that class. Then I went to walmart and bought groceries to cook for the rest of the week on my days off, so I’m feeling exceptionally accomplished. Tonight Stu is staying with a family in another school district so he can give a speech at their school tomorrow. So we are without child also. This is how I’m celebrating: glass of wine on the couch next to Hubbin (He’s prepping for work tomorrow – teacher with lots of jazzy powerpoints).

Hubbin and I had sort of an emotional week, so this makes a nice ending/break for me and us.

Important Question

What are some things you and your husband do to keep your marriage passionate?